that

God does not intervene

God set the world in motion

We make choices and go down paths and life hands us the good and the bad

God is there to guide us when we make the right choices

When we make the wrong choices

and when life hands us a load of pooh pooh

BUT I have to believe he doesn’t intervene otherwise I would be mad at God all the time and I would have to believe that God is not a just God….

so that leaves me with my original belief… back where I started.

As much as I want to believe in divine intervention and fate and destiny and that somewhere a benevolent being has a plan… I just see no evidence of that whatsoever in my life or the lives of others.

What is see is, now and then, an event that either we can’t explain or don’t understand and that we somehow attribute to God or the Universe because it makes us feel better.

My faith in the fact that there is a God has not wavered or weakened because I speak to him every day but I simply can’t believe that he took one house with a Tornado and not another, or that he decided a certain football team should win the championship, or that he decided to give this one good woman cancer and this one not, or take this baby but not that one, or let the children in Ethiopia starve but give us more than we need…. what kind of God is that?

© deb charles 2007

BOBBY LEFT HER

AT 3:25

ON THAT OLD HARLEY HIS DADDY BOUGHT IN ‘65

BOBBY TOLD HER, GET ON WITH YOUR LIFE

BUT AT 4:02 JENNY’S PACKED AND PEELIN’ OUTA’ THE DRIVE

Chasing Bobby to Birmingham

on three bald tires and a donut spare

Chasing Bobby to Birmingham

She can’t be here, if he’s there

Twenty dollars

in the pocket of her jeans

This old Camaro loves every Exxon that it sees

Mama told her “girl just let him go”

but Mama never kissed him, so how would Mama know

Chasing Bobby to Birmingham

on three bald tires and donut spare

Chasing Bobby to Birmingham

She can’t be here, if he’s there

She closes her eyes and says a prayer for these four wheels

She’s got to find him and tell him how she feels

Chasing Bobby to Birmingham

on three bald tires and a donut spare

Chasing Bobby to Birmingham

She can’t be here, if he’s there

She can’t be here, if he’s there

Chasing Bobby  click to listen

            © debcharles 2007

I won’t apologize for the choices that I’ve made

I offer no excuses for even one mistake

I’m not saying everything I did was right

I’m saying everything I did brought me here tonight

and Who I am, is where I’ve been

the lessons learned from losing, taught me how to win

I can’t regret a single road that I’ve gone down

‘cause where I’ve been is who I am

It takes some rain and pain to make us understand

what we can’t live without and what we surely can

I’m not saying that I’ve led the perfect life

I’m saying that the life I’ve led is perfectly alright

‘cause Who I am, is where I’ve been

all those lessons learned from losing, taught me how to win

I can’t regret a single road that I’ve gone down

‘cause where I’ve been is who I am

repeat chorus and tag line

Who I Am   Click to listen

I am most afraid of being embarrassed so my love for music and song has been greatly inhibited by my fear.

I have an audition for America’s Got Talent on Feb 3rd… I will be facing my fear and conquering it on that day. My goal is to just get through it.

Wish me luck.

and good luck in facing your own greatest fears

I will update you on what happens

Green tea or green tea with blueberry daily

Triple Omega Fish, flaxseed, Safflower, and Olive Oils (Nature Made)

Baby Aspirin daily

Safflower Oil Tablet Daily

Limit fatty foods

This is it…

I am sticking to this one until I recheck my cholesterol in June.

BIG FAT DISCLAIMER;;; THIS IS MY PLAN.. PLEASE CONSULT YOUR DOCTOR ON ALL OF THE ABOVE. I AM NOT AN EXPERT.

We are moving on.

It feels good I have to say.

I enjoyed the time I spent at the store but now I will also enjoy this new adventure.

Down South Sisters Collectibles EBAY Store 

Focus, Foward Movement….

All the wise words in the world will not change the way you feel.

I must grieve. It’s that simple. Seeing the last few breaths of life in the store is a hard one.

Yes I am sure God has something greater in store for me.

Yes when one door close, another one opens.

Yes I still have faith that all will be ok.

Yes I need to let go of attachment to results and things.

Still… I am sad. Simple and without doubt. SAD.

I finally really, really, really get it.

Bliss is found in one single moment and only that moment matters.

Bliss is not a constant unrelenting feeling. Stuff happens. Joy ebbs and flows.

Bliss is being able to find joy in every single moment possible. To relish it, recognize it, embrace it in that one moment. The more you can string together the better.

Those moments where bliss is absent will happen no matter what.

However, they will be less painful and more fleeting once we master the skill of total and complete surrender to and absorption of those blissful moments that happen every day.

Wow

I started out with just writing down the statement

“What do I really, really, really want?”  and answering it every morning.

AND

“What was my happiest moment?” every evening and answering it.

It has turned into a daily ritual with a few added things as follows:

I write down “What do I really, really, really want?” and I answer it

“Exactly what I have”

Every day.

First,,, I really do want exactly what I have. I have a job that I love, I have a husband I adore, I have a family I love, I have all the basic necessities. What more could you want?

Second..I discovered that what I have right now is enough and that my personal problem is that I don’t think I deserve what I have right now. Wow…

The exercise of writing down my happiest moment has made it very clear to me that my happiest moments are with the ones I love. Whether it’s on the phone with my sister Patty, or having breakfast with my sister Neva, or talking to my Mom, or sitting on the sofa with my husband, or doing my daily texting back and forth with my daughter or my best friend.. those are my happiest moments. It has also made me look for those happiest moments like a small child looking for a surprise… I know it will come… I just don’t know when… Another WOW… what a great gift this idea was.

Finally, I have added the following to my morning ritual:

I write down the following statement/prayer and then take just a moment to breathe it in:

“There is someone I can help today. Let me keep my eyes and my heart open so that I may see them.”

You know its coming.

You hold on tight.

You take a deep breath.

You pray for a boat.

Then it does come and nothing can prepare you for the inevitability of the flood of whatever except the fact that you know that the same wave that drowns you now will lift you up on the next cycle.

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